When I came to Radford, I had a good number of friends. Most of them were high school friends, some of which I had been friends with since elementary school and middle school. We did everything together. We were “those girls”. The ones who hung out everyday after school, talked about boys (and girls later on), school, family, and everything in between. When I was having trouble at home, they were my family. They held me when I cried, laughed until our stomachs hurt, and stayed up all night talking about nothing and everything. To say the least, they were my girls.
However, things started to change senior year of high school and into our first year at Radford. I got into a relationship and they started to, slowly, stop talking to me. I don’t think it was on purpose, but it happened. We didn’t hang out anymore and they started finding other friends to be around all the time. Then when I came to Radford, most communication stopped completely, even though two of “my girls” go here now. They only talk to me when I talk to them first, and sometimes they still don’t respond. I don’t know if it’s because college has made them feel like they don’t need old friends anymore or if they just grew out of our friendship. Either way, it impacted me way more than I know it impacted them.
It was a big change for me that I wasn’t expecting. I met my “best friend” in second grade and she had been through everything with me. We grew up together and are the people we are now because of each other. I know how gay it sounds, and not gay as in insulting but literally gay, but it’s hard when your friends, who you thought would always be there for you, just aren’t anymore. It sucks feeling left out, especially when your friends still talk to each other but not you.
But I guess that’s a part of growing up. You move on and find new people to make memories with. I try and tell myself that everything happens for a reason and if they don’t make an effort to be in your life, then you shouldn’t waste your energy on people who don’t care enough to try harder for you. You deserve the best there is and if you aren’t receiving the best, find people who will give it to you.